"That was the problem with sin. It took me farther than I planned to go, kept me longer than I intended to stay, and cost me more than I was willing to pay.”
Derek’s story didn’t begin with a sudden fall. It started quietly, taking root over years before he even knew what he was dealing with. But once it got rolling, it came on with the force of a hurricane on the Texas coast. He chased the thrill, the validation, and the fantasy. Eventually, he saw the massive pile up coming in the rear-view mirror
Even as the risk grew, he still kept going. Why? Because the lie always felt more satisfying than the truth. It still does…he just knows the true cost now.
This book isn’t a sermon or a sob story. It’s a raw, honest, and occasionally hilarious look at a man who learned the hard way that you can’t buy peace on credit.
And yet, there’s hope. There’s healing. And there’s a comeback story buried under the rubble. Derek wrote it himself.
Even as the risk grew, he still kept going. Why? Because the lie always felt more satisfying than the truth. It still does…he just knows the true cost now.
This book isn’t a sermon or a sob story. It’s a raw, honest, and occasionally hilarious look at a man who learned the hard way that you can’t buy peace on credit.
And yet, there’s hope. There’s healing. And there’s a comeback story buried under the rubble. Derek wrote it himself.
Inside the Mind of a Sex Addict is only available as a Special Preview Edition. Available June 8, 2026
About the Author
Derek Alworth is a man who’s made a mess of his world and lived to talk about it. After years of living a double life, he’s finally telling the truth, not to impress anybody, but to offer something real. With a sharp wit and a gift for honest storytelling, Derek opens up about addiction, deception, and the long road of recovery. He’s still a work in progress, but he’s trying to face the problem head-on. He wrote this book for the guy who thinks he’s too far gone and for the people who love him anyway.
If you were in the Dallas, TX area in the 1970s and 80s, you just may see some places from your past.
Who is this book for?
This book is for anyone who has ever wondered how something small turns into something they can’t control. Yeah, you've been there. You may have ventured out a little bit and thought, "if no one knows, no one will get hurt". Maybe so. For awhile. At some point, everything is on autopilot and a crash is inevitable. OR, you got busted! You know you should stop, because you can't stop. This is addiction. This book is for those with a current addiction or wants to understand those who are. And more importantly, it is for those who wonder if there’s a way back.
Don't let the title scare you away
Sure, Inside the Mind of a Sex Addict addresses some mature themes. And while the storytelling is serious and occasionally uncomfortable, the presentation stays firmly on the PG-13 side of the line. The emphasis is on honesty, self-reflection, and the long road toward clarity rather than sensational details.
Derek endured grueling, Sahara-like research conditions that required constant hydration to ensure this book remained thoughtful and considerate to you, Mr. John Q. Reader. The result…you won’t need to hide this book under the mattress.
Derek endured grueling, Sahara-like research conditions that required constant hydration to ensure this book remained thoughtful and considerate to you, Mr. John Q. Reader. The result…you won’t need to hide this book under the mattress.
Did Someone Say Easter Eggs?
What? Easter eggs? Is this like the In-N-Out Burger of books? Hidden messages. Things tucked just beneath the surface. The kind you only notice if you’re looking for them. Nahhhh… probably not. But you might want to look a little closer…
“Based on real experiences, real consequences, and a real attempt to make sense of it all.”
"The high delivered. It always did. Then the bill came due."
Derek’s story isn’t about falling into addiction. It’s about sprinting toward it with a full tank and the radio blasting. He chased the thrill, the validation, and the fantasy—until the wreckage caught up. He lost more than most would dare to risk, and still kept going. Why? Because the lie always felt more satisfying than the truth—until it didn’t.
This book isn’t a sermon or a sob story. It’s a raw, honest, and occasionally hilarious look at a man who learned the hard way that you can’t buy peace on credit.
And yet… there’s hope. There’s healing. And there’s a comeback story buried under the rubble. Derek wrote it himself.
This book isn’t a sermon or a sob story. It’s a raw, honest, and occasionally hilarious look at a man who learned the hard way that you can’t buy peace on credit.
And yet… there’s hope. There’s healing. And there’s a comeback story buried under the rubble. Derek wrote it himself.
Inside the Mind of a Sex Addict is only available as a Special Preview Edition
About the Author
Derek Alworth is a man who’s made a mess of his world and lived to talk about it. After years of living a double life, he’s finally telling the truth, not to impress anybody, but to offer something real. With a sharp wit and a gift for honest storytelling, Derek opens up about addiction, deception, and the long road of recovery. He’s still a work in progress, but he’s trying to face the problem head-on. He wrote this book for the guy who thinks he’s too far gone and for the people who love him anyway.
"The high delivered. It always did. Then the bill came due."
Derek’s story isn’t about falling into addiction. It’s about sprinting toward it with a full tank and the radio blasting. He chased the thrill, the validation, and the fantasy—until the wreckage caught up. He lost more than most would dare to risk, and still kept going. Why? Because the lie always felt more satisfying than the truth—until it didn’t.
This book isn’t a sermon or a sob story. It’s a raw, honest, and occasionally hilarious look at a man who learned the hard way that you can’t buy peace on credit.
And yet… there’s hope. There’s healing. And there’s a comeback story buried under the rubble. Derek wrote it himself.
This book isn’t a sermon or a sob story. It’s a raw, honest, and occasionally hilarious look at a man who learned the hard way that you can’t buy peace on credit.
And yet… there’s hope. There’s healing. And there’s a comeback story buried under the rubble. Derek wrote it himself.
Inside the Mind of a Sex Addict is only available as a Special Preview Edition
About the Author
Derek Alworth is a man who’s made a mess of his world and lived to talk about it. After years of living a double life, he’s finally telling the truth, not to impress anybody, but to offer something real. With a sharp wit and a gift for honest storytelling, Derek opens up about addiction, deception, and the long road of recovery. He’s still a work in progress, but he’s trying to face the problem head-on. He wrote this book for the guy who thinks he’s too far gone and for the people who love him anyway.
